fighting fears

Monday, May 29, 2017

you can't always be afraid
there comes a time
where you must press on

to live 
to ache 
to thrive 
to be 

you have to shake off those doubts
and hold onto hope
you've got this
even if you're pretending at first
that's practicing
and pretty soon
you'll really truly have it


Thursday, May 25, 2017

we live in a world
with so much regret
too many losses and not enough victories
it's a place where good seems impossible
beauty untouchable
where poverty is more common than wealth
and sickness strikes more daily
we are the planets inhabitants
we are the ones who live here
grasping for hope
takes a being stronger than fears
stronger than the everlasting ache
you have to be a warrior to survive here
you have to be a fighter

my baby sis

Monday, May 22, 2017

the little girl
who's favorite color is red
has the kind of eyes
that looks at the world
from inside out
forget the horrors
the grim and dirt
she sees the moon
grabs it and names it gilbert

she plugs her nose
when she takes a shower
bc what if water gets in
snowboarding down a hill - yes
she asks for help
while doing her schoolwork
even tho she's already a genius
you see
she's the little girl who loves red
and she's a mega miracle child
death fought to yank her away
but it lost
and now

ive got a treasure who calls me
and sister
she's beautiful and precious and wow
im gonna go cry now


Tuesday, May 16, 2017

i recognize you
my mind shouts
i remember you from somewhere
we once met
and went on our own way
but now we've made eye contact
for a second time
but have never truly spoke
who are you
what is your life like
how have you grown
where have you traveled
why are you who you are
im curious
i would like to no longer be
but instead

tell me you feel this too 

ticket to freedom

Monday, May 8, 2017

i don't dream cheap 
like why should i
ive got a free ticket 
in my imagination 
i can go anywhere
do anything 
so watch out world 
im coming

my fence

Friday, May 5, 2017

i can see things
with a clearer view
other times
im fogged up with emotions
and wants
needs i think i have
i picture them
desiring items i can't have
and then
suddenly i see the layers of fog
roll away
and i can see the green grass again
on my side of the fence
i realize
it's green enough