it hurts

Monday, January 9, 2017

it hurts too much
to care that is
to love those you love
to love those you treasure
when you care
you experience sorrow
through death
disappointment
hurt
regret
you hold onto hope
that death will not snatch
the person you love away
then when death comes
you fight
you fight hard
it's a losing battle
but a soldier fights anyways
it's what you do
its what you're called to do
and
it hurts to hate
you carry the pain of memories
of past words and jabs
when death comes
for that person you hate
regret fills you like an empty pool
so why hate
or love
they both hurt
they both cause pain
choose one my friend
pain of love
pain of hate
either way you go
you'll see
it hurts to care

something i wrote months ago and decided i could finally post it now

18 comments

  1. This is something I understand sooo deeply I can't even explain it.
    You need to write that poetry book! Like NOW XD

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    1. omw really?!
      lol!! I'm working on it - promise xD

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  2. *is legit speechless and can't even think of anything to say*

    *comes back later* OKAY, JU - it's 110% official. YOUR TALENT FOR POETRY IS OUT OF THIS WORLD AND I LOVE IT. So much. All of this. It was so beautiful and incredible and I'm sorry if this comment is a little incoherent, because I may or may not still be slightly speechless? xD THANK YOU FOR THIS.

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    1. *feels speechless as well and doesn't know what to say*

      SAVANNAH SERIOUSLY I STILL DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY I AM SO HONORED AND FEEL LIKE SOBBING CUZ whoaaaa

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  3. *chills* oh my goodness, this.

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  4. WOW. That's really really beautiful. Thanks for sharing!! <3

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  5. Wow. Okay, Julia, I *know* I've said this before, but this is my absolute favorite of all your poems.

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    1. JESSECA SERIOUSLY OMW WOWWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW *hugs you* thank you thank you thank you <3333333

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  6. Julia <3. My heart hurt for you while I read this -it sounded very raw, and then your disclaimer at the end seemed to say you felt it too.
    But I also wanted to tell you that those lines
    "it's a losing battle
    but a soldier fights anyways"
    ...That just grabbed me, girl. Love that!

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    1. gosh yeah I think raw is the right term..and I did feel it, a lot.
      oh wow really?! same. I feel that way so often, ya know? thanks so much <3

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  7. Yessss. *tries to figure out what to do now* this though. Pain from death is so hard. It has its own category because the grief is so different from anything. One moment you're fine, the next you're not. You may have been close, you may have not, but either way, it still affects you.

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    1. wow yes... mainly something reminds me of something and then it hurts again. and what you said there at the end, omw, yes.

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  8. *waits impatiently for your book*

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  9. "it hurts to care"
    sobbing because it's so true. the choice is tough

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    1. omw yes...*hugs you cuz you understand*

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dude you make my day with comments *wipes tear dramatically* *gives you a hug*

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