MAYBE WE SHOULDN'T BE FRIENDS FOREVER
Monday, February 4, 2019
when you asked if I would always be here for you and I hesitated,
it wasn't because I didn't think I would want to stay here for you always,
it was because I didn't know if my way of being there for you
would be what you would always need.
so when I replied with a yes and your eyes told me you didn't believe me, it hurt.
I didn't hesitate because of me. I hesitated because of you.
[tell me please what this makes you feel and think of]
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It makes me think of how I lost my best friend. How we faded apart, not really because of us, but because of her mom suddenly not liking me anymore, after five years of me and my friend being best friends.
ReplyDeleteIt makes me think of how I decided to make that final cut, to stop talking because I knew we weren't what each other needed anymore. I have yet to really make any good friends, but I know that in this time of being mostly alone, God is shaping me for something greater.
I love your poems! Even though I don't always comment, I read them all. <3
<333 dude yes, I think about it every now and then that I'd love to be friends forever with everyone I meet (maybe) and yet if that's not to be maybe it's a good thing?? and that's so sad you know, that it's a good thing? that maybe losing friends isn't bad. maybe they were meant for you for this time of your life and not for longer??
ReplyDeleteand in general this makes me think of all the amazing beautiful bloggers who once were and who left and how I miss them bc I wish they'd just stay forever but maybe it's better for them that they didn't and better for me too you know? we all need to grow.
This is super sad but also super relatable. We and our friends are growing up, and sometimes it's easier for us to see how they're changing than it is for them. That includes maybe not needing us sometime in the future...
ReplyDeleteUgh yes. When I first read this (on your insta?) and reading it now I had two different responses initially. Reading it now with the title it really resonates because I've been having to let go of people who were crucial parts of my life, my childhood friends for years, but now I have to let them go, while still being there occasionally for them. But this definitely makes me think of that. I know that people won't always be there for us, or we can't be there for them, and it always hurts but sometimes it's for the best.
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