Tuesday, February 13, 2018

i think i forgot that i knew that chipped nail polish is aesthetic and
that messy bed head hair flying in the summer breeze is freedom
that acne scars aren't something to be ashamed of but rather to be proud of
imperfections aren't ugly. they're treasures
i think i forgot that and focused on pretending to be perfect when lol that's not me so dude
slap on that makeup if you wanna, but don't cover up the jewel you are.

"God made you special and He loves you very much" -  Bob and Larry [veggie tales]


Tuesday, February 6, 2018

have you ever thought about the people who you would have loved, for sure
the long ago family members passed on or friends your parents speak of that held you as an infant
they've become shadows. once filled with passion but now the passion that fills a story.
and well.
i just wonder what kind of julia ryan i would have been now if i could of grown up with those folks around
i'm pretty sure this is what it feels like to miss someone you've never met


Thursday, February 1, 2018

words are a vicious and wild thing
they thrash and tear through the most guarded of hearts
they can destroy a smile. they have destroyed smiles.
love cannot be contained by the letters. love isn't describable.
words are deeper than the deepest ocean bc they run along the ground, picking up the emotions we drop.
humans don't trust them. we have heard enough that we close our ears. to close our hearts.
and there lays the truth. don't worry, i'm crying too. xxxx

(say thanks for the photo cuz I trampled over fresh snow in none boot like shoes after work tonight. its -1) 


Sunday, January 28, 2018


do you ever feel like you're reaching for the extreme beyond

that, silly you, that's too far from your grasp

but you dream on even when you're told not to

small hope seems to be crushed before it blooms into deep hope

you learn to do that from those who have lost it before

walk on. look up. keep going.

stop bursting bubbles that are meant to turn into bursting flames

kiddo. whatever is beyond isn't too far away

never stop reaching. never.