fighting fears

you can't always be afraid
there comes a time
where you must press on

to live 

to ache 

to thrive 

to be 

you have to shake off those doubts
and hold onto hope
you've got this
even if you're pretending at first
that's practicing
and pretty soon
you'll really truly have it

unreachable

we live in a world
with so much regret
too many losses and not enough victories
it's a place where good seems impossible
beauty untouchable
where poverty is more common than wealth
and sickness strikes more daily
we are the planets inhabitants
we are the ones who live here
grasping for hope
takes a being stronger than fears
stronger than the everlasting ache
you have to be a warrior to survive here
you have to be a fighter

my baby sis

the little girl

who's favorite color is red

has the kind of eyes

that looks at the world

from inside out

forget the horrors

the grim and dirt

she sees the moon
grabs it and names it gilbert

she plugs her nose

when she takes a shower

bc what if water gets in

snowboarding down a hill - yes
she asks for help
while doing her schoolwork
even tho she's already a genius
you see
she's the little girl who loves red

and she's a mega miracle child

death fought to yank her away

but it lost

and now

ive got a treasure who calls me
jula
and sister
she's beautiful and precious and wow

im gonna go cry now

bye

strangers

i recognize you
my mind shouts
i remember you from somewhere
we once met
smiled
and went on our own way
but now we've made eye contact
for a second time
but have never truly spoke
who are you
what is your life like
how have you grown
where have you traveled
why are you who you are
im curious
i would like to no longer be
strangers
but instead
friends

tell me you feel this too 

ticket to freedom

i don't dream cheap 

like why should i

ive got a free ticket 

in my imagination 

i can go anywhere

do anything 

so watch out world 

im coming

my fence

sometimes
i can see things
with a clearer view
other times
im fogged up with emotions
and wants
needs i think i have
i picture them
desiring items i can't have
and then
suddenly i see the layers of fog
roll away
and i can see the green grass again
on my side of the fence
i realize
it's green enough